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Post by vy on Jul 4, 2012 9:36:46 GMT -5
[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=width,406,bTable] | [STYLE=margin-right: 33px; text-align: center; font-family: times new roman; font-size: 25px; text-transform: uppercase; color: #8FB3B4;]I MADE A WISH UPON A STAR[/style][STYLE=float: right; width: 378px; text-align: center; font-family: times new roman; font-size: 25px; text-transform: lowercase; font-style: italic; color: #F2F9F9; line-height: 17px; background-color: #043233; border-top: 1px dotted #043233; border-left: 1px solid #043233; border-bottom: 1px dotted #043233; padding-right: 10px; padding-left: 10px; padding-top: 5px; padding-bottom: 5px; border-top-right-radius: 20px; border-top-left-radius: 20px; margin-top: 183px; margin-bottom: -277px; margin-right: -180px; -webkit-transform: rotate(90deg); -o-transform: rotate(90deg); -moz-transform: rotate(90deg);]TO KEEP BOTH OF US FROM BEING LONELY[/style][STYLE=float: left; background-color: #FFFFFF; border-top: 3px solid #043233; border-left: 3px solid #043233; padding: 10px; font-family: arial; font-size: 11px; color: #031D1E; text-align: justify; margin-top: -3px; margin-bottom: 0px; width: 345px; line-height: 12px;][STYLE=float: right; padding-left: 12px; padding-bottom: 5px;][/style] Renji-ni-sama has always been lonely hasn't he? For as long as I can remember he never talked to anyone. He is always in his room reading some book. I wonder if he even likes reading those books. I am sure they are books he had already read sometimes. When I was four I would see him walking straight home from school. When he opens the door he would never greet our parents. Actually sometimes they would not even know that he was home because he was so quiet. Even I did not notice sometimes, it was as if he was some ghost that just comes and goes.
While people in the family loved me, especially my parents. They always showered me with gifts when they can. Of course they give gifts to my two older brother as well but they pay much more attention to me. Probably because I am so clumsy. Still, I did not mind being clumsy because I get people running all over to me. And I did not care too much about my brother either. He was always quiet so it was hard to talk to him. He also had a really weird red eye. People say it is not normal to have two eye colors and it really wasn't. Especially with one that is so red like that. I can't even look at him in the face sometimes because it is so scary.
Then one day, when I was watching t.v. in my room I hear a whole bunch of things fallen down. I got scared thinking it was some bad men or something like that so I tried to sneak into the kitchen, where the sound was coming from, and that was when I saw Renji-ni-sama. He had scratches, cuts and bruises all over him. I did not get it at all but I merely stared. mom and dad were out right now at work. At first I thought about coming over to ask him if he was alright and maybe help him clean up the mess but I still found him too scary. I was sure that someone else would do it right?
Then it happened again about three days later. Mom was out but dad was home. Although he was busy with his work still. Yet, when I fall, no matter what happens mom and dad would always come to me. So I hid behind the wall and waited for dad to come down and ask Renji-ni-sama if he was alright. No matter how long I waited though that didn't happen at all. No one came running to him, ask him what happened, kiss him to make things better or anything like that. That was when I noticed he must had been lonely so I came out of my hiding place. He had noticed me right away. I saw his face staring at me as if asking why I was here. When I saw that red eye looking at me I looked down. I hear that red eyes can sometimes curse you so I got scared. Red eyes usually belong to demons after all...did that make him a demon? No...I didn't want to think that. If I do then he might get lonely. So instead he I walked up to him. "Ummm...do you need help? There are some places you can't get to right?" I asked.
There was a small moment of silence before he answered me. "No."
I looked up at him for a moment but then looked down again. "Are you sure? I mean aren't you hurt? What happened? Are you alright? I...I can use magic to make it all better." I told him still feeling scared. I can still feel that eye looking at me, I knew it was looking at me.
"Tsukasa, please just leave me alone. I am fine. Don't pretend you start caring when you don't."
What? But I do care! We're brothers aren't we? How...How can he say something like that? That's so mean. I opened my mouth to tell him I do when he had cut in.
"After all I know you were hiding every time I get hurt. You're scared of me as well aren't you? Scared that I would curse you huh?" he asked his voice still sounding so distant and uncaring.
"I'm not scared!" I told him. "Y-You're my brother so....so I'm not scared."
"Look at me then instead of the ground."
Do...do I really have to? Again I got scared of being cursed. What if some ghost comes to me? No...he's my brother, there was no way he would curse me right? So I looked up at him trying to avoid that red eye. I wanted to tell him to close it so that it would stop staring at me. "S-so...can I help you now Renji-ni-sama?"
Again there was silence as he thought about it. I wish he would choose fast already. Before I look away.
"I suppose so."
I couldn't help but smile at that. And so I took the band-aids and that water thingie that mom uses. When I spray it on him he winced like how I winced. It made me giggle and he merely stared at me before commenting "I see this is funny for you."
I gave him a nod. It kind of was right? Still just because he didn't like it, I tried to do it as softly as possible. I still saw him wince but at least he wasn't moving anymore. And....I think that was the first time I ever truly talked to him as well.[/style][STYLE=padding: 10px; letter-spacing: 1px; text-transform: lowercase; font-family: arial; font-size: 10px; color: #031D1E; text-align: center; margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; width: 345px;]made by kiwii at btn & ote![/style] |
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Post by vy on Jul 4, 2012 9:36:57 GMT -5
[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=width,406,bTable] | [STYLE=margin-right: 33px; text-align: center; font-family: times new roman; font-size: 25px; text-transform: uppercase; color: #8FB3B4;]I MADE A WISH UPON A STAR[/style][STYLE=float: right; width: 378px; text-align: center; font-family: times new roman; font-size: 25px; text-transform: lowercase; font-style: italic; color: #F2F9F9; line-height: 17px; background-color: #043233; border-top: 1px dotted #043233; border-left: 1px solid #043233; border-bottom: 1px dotted #043233; padding-right: 10px; padding-left: 10px; padding-top: 5px; padding-bottom: 5px; border-top-right-radius: 20px; border-top-left-radius: 20px; margin-top: 183px; margin-bottom: -277px; margin-right: -180px; -webkit-transform: rotate(90deg); -o-transform: rotate(90deg); -moz-transform: rotate(90deg);]TO KEEP BOTH OF US FROM BEING LONELY[/style][STYLE=float: left; background-color: #FFFFFF; border-top: 3px solid #043233; border-left: 3px solid #043233; padding: 10px; font-family: arial; font-size: 11px; color: #031D1E; text-align: justify; margin-top: -3px; margin-bottom: 0px; width: 345px; line-height: 12px;][STYLE=float: right; padding-left: 12px; padding-bottom: 5px;][/style] Ever since that day I decided to keep him from being lonely. When he gets home and hurt I would usually be the one to help him. Sometimes he lets me but most of the time if he can do it himself he would not let me come near him. I would just watch him making sure that he does it right. I would come into his room as well when he is doing homework. I know that he didn't like to talk or be disturbed but I didn't want him to be alone either. So I would try to read the books he reads. They were really hard since they have no pictures. There were so many words I didn't get but I wanted to read the books that he reads. So then maybe we can talk about it? Almost like talking about t.v. shows. When he is done with his homework, he would look at me sometimes and ask what was I was doing. When he does that I would smile and say that I was reading.
"Do you even understand it?" he would ask me and I would shake his head. When that happens he would sigh and then sit onto the bed next to me. He would explain to me what the book means. Most of the time they were really weird. Like the main character wasn't a hero but someone who got tricked. Other times it would be about monsters for the main characters. Yet no matter what, for the most part they have really sad endings. It usually ends with the main character dying because they want to help people. Was helping people bad? I don't think so, I think it's good to help people.
There was even one story about a traveler who gave everything to people because he was so nice. They would keep taking things from him again and again such as his money, his watch, everything. Until all he has left was a heart but when a goblin wanted it, he gave away his heart. The goblin thanked him for it but Renji-ni-sama says that he did it in a mean way. I think the word was ummm...sarcasm? I'm not really sure but still the traveler was really happy before he died after giving away his heart because that was the first time anyone thanked him. When he told me that story I cried for the traveler. He asked me why I was crying since it wasn't real but I couldn't help it. It was just so sad. So I promised myself that I would thank people everything they do something nice for me so I thanked Renji-ni-sama. He just stared at me for a moment before taking me down to watch t.v. so I would stop crying. He said that if mom and dad found me crying they would not stop asking him questions so I made sure not to cry.
Then there were times where I would watch him do his homework. He does it so fast that it scares me. I mean he must be like a genius or something. He is so cool. I try to learn from him and he would teach me. After teaching me he would give me some of his old homework to do to help me practice. He is so nice. When I thanked him, he had merely nodded before going back to do his own work. It was because of him I learn a lot of words and how to count really fast too. I even amazed mom and dad with my knowledge! When they ask me who taught it to me I told them that it was Renji-ni-sama. They seemed rather surprised and would ask him if it was true. He would just nod and go back to reading his book.
Although no matter how hard I try, I still can't look at him in the eyes. his red eye still scare me. I mean...it looks so weird. I hope I can look at him one day since he isn't really that mean. And also...since he is always home he keeps me from being lonely as well since mom and dad can't always be home. It's also fun to be able to help him sometimes. I think I might become a doctor one day. When I told him that he had merely nodded. I asked him what he wanted to be. He never answered me and just read his books. He does that sometimes but I don't mind it. I hope no matter what we choose the two of us can still be together. Since I get really lonely without him..[/style][STYLE=padding: 10px; letter-spacing: 1px; text-transform: lowercase; font-family: arial; font-size: 10px; color: #031D1E; text-align: center; margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; width: 345px;]made by kiwii at btn & ote![/style] |
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Post by vy on Jul 4, 2012 9:37:09 GMT -5
[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=width,406,bTable] | [STYLE=margin-right: 33px; text-align: center; font-family: times new roman; font-size: 25px; text-transform: uppercase; color: #8FB3B4;]I MADE A WISH UPON A STAR[/style][STYLE=float: right; width: 378px; text-align: center; font-family: times new roman; font-size: 25px; text-transform: lowercase; font-style: italic; color: #F2F9F9; line-height: 17px; background-color: #043233; border-top: 1px dotted #043233; border-left: 1px solid #043233; border-bottom: 1px dotted #043233; padding-right: 10px; padding-left: 10px; padding-top: 5px; padding-bottom: 5px; border-top-right-radius: 20px; border-top-left-radius: 20px; margin-top: 183px; margin-bottom: -277px; margin-right: -180px; -webkit-transform: rotate(90deg); -o-transform: rotate(90deg); -moz-transform: rotate(90deg);]TO KEEP BOTH OF US FROM BEING LONELY[/style][STYLE=float: left; background-color: #FFFFFF; border-top: 3px solid #043233; border-left: 3px solid #043233; padding: 10px; font-family: arial; font-size: 11px; color: #031D1E; text-align: justify; margin-top: -3px; margin-bottom: 0px; width: 345px; line-height: 12px;][STYLE=float: right; padding-left: 12px; padding-bottom: 5px;][/style] Now that I am five years old I can go to school now. Actually it is even better than that! Because my brother helps me through with school so much and the teachers were so amazed by how much I know they let me skip a grade. I'm going to be in first grade now, although I'm sad that I won't be in the same grade as my brother. Still I get to learn things like adding and subtracting. I also get to read bigger books although they still have pictures. Even then though I kind of like my brother's books more...if only they didn't have sad endings.
At school I also made a lot of friends even though they are older than me. We get to play a lot of games together and it is so much fun. And then after school I would wait by the gate for Renji-ni-sama to come by. When he does, he would take me home or sometimes we would go to the bookstore together and buy books. I've been buying a lot of books lately for myself although mine has more happy endings then my brother's. I really don't like sad endings, they always make me want to cry. Life should be happy right? And then at times we would go to the candy store or ice cream store and buy something to eat. I would tell him all about school like what I learn today or what I play. He would just nod and listen to my stories. At times he would make some sort of comment but for the most part he was really quiet just like usual.
Then one night when I was reading in his room, I saw a star outside the window and ran to it. I clapped my hand and quickly made a wish before it went away. Oh star-san, please grant my wish. When he asked me what I had wished for, I told him that it was for us to stay together forever. He just stared at me for a few moments before going back to reading his book. I couldn't help but grin staring at him like that. For someone who is so smart, sometimes I feel like I'm smarter than him at some stuffs. Most of the time it was about people or family but I guess that is because i have a lot of friends so I know more than him. When I told him that he had stared at me before saying "You only know what they want to show you." I wondered what he meant by that. Everyone is so nice after all. Are they keeping secrets from me? If so what secrets would they keep? Did....did he keep secrets from me as well?
Then one day at school, I saw some of the older kids take Renji-ni-sama to the back of a building. I didn't get why so I decided to follow them. That was when I saw they were hitting him calling him things like 'Demon child' and other mean things. About how he was a monster as they keep hitting him. I didn't want to see him get hurt anymore so I run out and pushed one of the kids out of the way. I was so scared, but they were being really mean. Right after that though I started to cry so loud and one of the teachers came over. She asked me if I was alright and I pointed at the big kids and the teacher told them that she wanted to see them later before taking Renji-ni-sama and me away.
At home that day he asked me why I did that. Now they would target me as well for protecting a demon child. I asked him if that was what he had to go through every day. If that was why sometimes when he comes home, he would be so hurt. He didn't say anything. I told him, "If they pick on you for being a demon. Then as your brother I'm a demon too. This way we can both be demons together." Right? Since blood goes through family right? He remained quiet and I looked up at his face clearly for the second time. He...he didn't look like a monster. He looked like anyone else, his red eye didn't even scare me anymore. I wonder if it's because I'm a demon as well or if it was because he's my brother and that such things don't scare me anymore. Actually...wasn't this what one of the monster's in his story wanted? Someone who to be with him so he won't be lonely.
Renji-ni-sama was right though. All my friends left me because of what I did. They called me a demon as well and that I should just go with my brother who is a demon but I didn't mind it. Since they let me go with my brother and won't be mad at me for doing so I had even thanked them.[/style][STYLE=padding: 10px; letter-spacing: 1px; text-transform: lowercase; font-family: arial; font-size: 10px; color: #031D1E; text-align: center; margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; width: 345px;]made by kiwii at btn & ote![/style] |
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Post by vy on Jul 4, 2012 9:37:22 GMT -5
[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=width,406,bTable] | [STYLE=margin-right: 33px; text-align: center; font-family: times new roman; font-size: 25px; text-transform: uppercase; color: #8FB3B4;]I MADE A WISH UPON A STAR[/style][STYLE=float: right; width: 378px; text-align: center; font-family: times new roman; font-size: 25px; text-transform: lowercase; font-style: italic; color: #F2F9F9; line-height: 17px; background-color: #043233; border-top: 1px dotted #043233; border-left: 1px solid #043233; border-bottom: 1px dotted #043233; padding-right: 10px; padding-left: 10px; padding-top: 5px; padding-bottom: 5px; border-top-right-radius: 20px; border-top-left-radius: 20px; margin-top: 183px; margin-bottom: -277px; margin-right: -180px; -webkit-transform: rotate(90deg); -o-transform: rotate(90deg); -moz-transform: rotate(90deg);]TO KEEP BOTH OF US FROM BEING LONELY[/style][STYLE=float: left; background-color: #FFFFFF; border-top: 3px solid #043233; border-left: 3px solid #043233; padding: 10px; font-family: arial; font-size: 11px; color: #031D1E; text-align: justify; margin-top: -3px; margin-bottom: 0px; width: 345px; line-height: 12px;][STYLE=float: right; padding-left: 12px; padding-bottom: 5px;][/style] The next two years of my life all I had really were my family. No one anted to be my friend because of what I did but to be honest...I didn't care too much. If they didn't like me for me then I don't want them right? Besides I have Renji-ni-sama. Although he didn't know that they saw me as a demon child too. I didn't want to worry him since he already has done so much for me. Also it wasn't as bad as what he had to go through. Maybe it was because I was once their friend but they didn't hit me or anything. They just ignore me but it might be better that way. So then only I would be the one that have to face this. It don't mind it after all, it's not like I'm alone right?
Then one day a kid came up to me and actually talked to me. I was so happy, he said that he lost something in outside. It was raining and his mom was making him go home so he asked me to look for it. So on that day I went to Renji-ni-sama to tell him to go home early. I have to go look for something. He just nodded and walked home with his umbrella since I forgot mine. Oh well, it doesn't matter, so I just went on and looked for the lost bracelet. I spent hours looking for it but it was raining so hard and I couldn't find it. I was really cold too and the next thing I knew...I think I fainted. Because when I woke up I found myself at home with my brother sitting next to my bed. I asked him what happened and he told me that whoever told me they lost their bracelet was lying to me. That I had been tricked but he didn't sound angry.
"I'm so glad." I told him.
"Why? They tricked you. Aren't you mad?"
"No. That meant that he didn't lose something so important. So that meant no one took it from him and you're not mad at him for that. I'm so glad."
He stared at me as if I was something he had never ever seen in his life before. The doctor came that day and told me that I was sick so I had to rest. Luckily it was vacation time so we didn't have to miss school. Renji-ni-sama would make me porridge and help me eat as our parents said that he was in charge of me. It was really fun and I didn't mind being sick either. He made sure that I was always well rested. It hurts to talk but I did so anyway because I didn't want any silence between us. During that week, though he told me that he was going out for a bit and for me to stay in bed.
I watched him leave with his thick jacket as it was snowing outside. I knew that I should stay in bed but I didn't want him to be lonely walking down the streets and what if some kid try to hurt him? So I got out of bed and chased after him but since I didn't know where he was going I didn't dare change into anything warmer. I'm sure we wouldn't be out for too long right? Renji-ni-sama didn't usually stay out for very long. But if he found me then he would take me back home and he might get mad that I didn't listen to him so when I saw him I started to walk just to make sure he was safe. Again though it was really cold, no it was even colder than before. I coughed and coughed but I still went on as far as I can.
Then suddenly I fell and the coughing got worse and worse. One of the adults ran over to me and ask if I was alright. I told them that i was before standing up and following my brother again. There were times where I fall and the coughing increase but I ignored it. I get sick a lot since I'm not really good at taking care of myself anyway so I was sure I would get better. Right now I needed to make sure to protect my brother. Soon though I fell down and I felt so tired. I couldn't get up and this time all the adults came running over to me. I didn't know what they were saying. So many of them were talking but I wanted to tell them that I was okay that they should look out for my brother instead. A lot of people pick on him after all so someone might try to hurt him on the street. Yet I couldn't talk anymore. I...I wanted to sleep but I was scared. I had a feeling if I slept then I would never wake up. I felt myself crying at that thought as I tried to scream for my brother. Yet I couldn't but he had came back and saw me. I saw him staring at me. He...he had that look in his eyes again. The look he had before I talked to him where he looked so lonely.
Ahhh...I can't stay awake anymore. What....what was I going to do? I wanted to scream. I wanted to cry. I wanted to tell him that I would see him again. We were demon brothers, as long as we both live neither of us would have to be lonely but...that wouldn't happen. I...I was going to die wasn't I? As I looked up I saw a shooting star and made a wish.
Hoshi-sama...Kami-sama...anyone out there...please please don't let Renji-ni-sama be lonely! Please be there for him! He isn't good with being alone! He would get hurt! He needs someone to protect him from those that call him a demon! He needs someone to help heal his wounds when he gets hurt! He needs someone to teach him what it's like to have fun and talk to people! Renji-ni-sama wasn't a demon! He doesn't talk a lot, he always has a blank look on his face, he has a red eye, he rather read than talk but he took care of me, he taught me so many things and...he was alone. It hurts to be alone. I continued to stare at him as he came over to me and knelt down. When I saw him though I remembered the stories he explained to me, the lessons he taught me, how he would watch t.v. with me and spend time with me.
Ahhh....I never got to thank him for that now did I? Thank you Renji-ni-sama...for everything. Even though I knew that you didn't care about those times, I had a lot of fun with you. So I hope one day you can make some friends...it hurts to be lonely.[/style][STYLE=padding: 10px; letter-spacing: 1px; text-transform: lowercase; font-family: arial; font-size: 10px; color: #031D1E; text-align: center; margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; width: 345px;]made by kiwii at btn & ote![/style] |
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