Post by SNOW ♠ on Jul 18, 2012 11:01:15 GMT -5
so yeah...this did not really turned out the way i wanted it to and the ending sucks as well and uh...it needs some editing which i'm way to lazy to do, but at least i actually finally wrote an fye fanfic? and i'm too lazy to find a suitable icon right now /shot
Mother’s Day.
It was a day that reminded him of her soothing voice as she read a storybook to him and his sister in bed, her warm touch as she embraced him, her joy-filled laughter when he fell out of a chair from pure clumsiness, her gentle scolding whenever he fought with his siblings and her bright smile as she watched the whole family.
He loved her. They all did. And that was why for Mother’s Day this year—the eleventh year that he had known her—Ryuu wanted to get her something special. He was the only one though. His twin sister, Rin and his older brother Raiden, not to mention his dad wanted to too. He didn’t want to get the same thing that their father was getting her though. He wanted to buy her something on his own—well, not really on his own since Rin was pitching in too, so he guess that he better say, on their own.
There was a problem with this though. They had no idea what to get her. He had asked Rin since she was a girl and girls should understand each other, right? Wrong. His sister didn’t have a clue what their mom would like. And obvious solution was to go and ask her what she would like without her knowing that they were getting it for her. Easy as pie.
“Mom, can we ask you something?” Ryuu asked, approaching his mom who was sitting at kitchen table with a book in her hands.
“Of course. What is it?” A small sparkle of curiosity could be seen in her eyes as she looked at her children with a smile.
“What would a woman like for a present?” Rin questioned.
Their mom looked thoughtful. “What would a woman like?” she repeated the question.
“Yeah, like, if you had a friend that’s really nice, what would you get her?” Ryuu added.
“Well, it really depends on what sort of person that friend is.”
“She’s really nice, mature, gentle, beautiful and...perfect!” Rin tried to explain.
Their mom raised an eyebrow at this. “Perfect? Now, I really want to meet this person that you’re talking about. Do I know her?”
“Yes.”
“No.”
Both twins snapped their heads in each other’s direction, staring at each other with wide eyes. Oh, well, this was just great. They were twins, weren’t they? Wasn’t she supposed to be able to read his mind and produce the same answer as his or something? Or perhaps he was the one who was supposed to do that…But he was older, so she had to match him!
Mom laughed. “You two are thinking of the same person, right?” she teased them a bit.
“Yes!” This time the answer matched.
“Arugh, just tell us what you want for Mother’s Day, Mom!” Ryuu finally let their secret mission slip through his lips. Hey, he didn’t have that much patience, okay? They weren’t really getting anywhere with this interrogation anyways.
“Ryuu-nii!” Rin hissed, clearly unsatisfied that this wasn’t going to be a surprise any more.
Their mom laughed softly once more, laid down her book and got up from her chair. Taking a step towards them, she wrapped her arms around them. “All I want for Mother’s Day is to celebrate with you two, your dad and your brother. Just seeing all of you happy together is more than enough for me.”
“See, this I why we had to do this! If we asked you directly then you’d just say something like this,” Ryuu said, shifting his head to the side slightly so that his mouth wouldn’t be buried in her sleeve. He was frustrated at their failed attempt at actually getting her something tangible that she wanted. Okay, so maybe it was pretty much his fault that the plan didn’t work, but still…!
A smile spread across their mom’s face again. “Okay, how about this? How about we go somewhere together and you two can buy something for me?”
Ryuu looked at his sister. He guessed that it was better than nothing. He can tell that Rin thought so too.
“Okay,” they said in unison.
So the next day, the three of them went out to the mall and the twins were able to buy something for their mom. They ended up using their whole month of savings to buy her a beautiful golden necklace with a red pendant dangling from it. The color red was her favorite color after all; the color that consequentially matched her husband’s hair and the hair of her children.
It was the first present and the last present they bought for their mom on Mother’s Day.
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The picture of his beautiful mom dressed in elegancy was replaced by one of her laying on the hard cement road and covered in her favorite color.
Red.
That was all that he could see. Red, red, red and more red. He didn’t know what happened. He had no idea how this could have all been real. He remembered the loud sound of a car engine and the honking of the horn blaring in his ears before the feeling of being pushed as his name was being called. He felt a stinging sensation—akin to being burned by fire—as his arm and leg skidded across the cement along with the harsh sound of shattering glass. Then everything went black.
Everything went black until distant noises slowly pulled him out of his sleep. Bright crimson red eyes opened, only to meet with more crimson and the smell of death.
“Mom…?” Ryuu called out to his fallen parent in a trembling, weak voice that was almost inaudible because of the loud chatting of the onlookers. He tried to push himself up, but only managed to get onto his hands and knees for just a second before falling down once more with a cry of pain. Tears started to blur his vision and he didn’t even bothered to hold them back, letting the salty water flow, stinging the cuts on his cheeks. Battered and bloody, he struggled forward. He had to reach her. He just had to!
Two hands suddenly grabbed on to him and gently held him down. “Kid, don’t move. You’re going to injure yourself even worse,” an unknown male voice told him.
“Let me go!” he shouted back. He stopped and gasped at the pain that rippled through him. Even yelling was painful. Why did everything have to hurt so much?
“She’s dead,” the same voice spoke again.
“No, she’s not!” he shot back, trying his best to ignore the pain. Tears continued to flow in steady torrents down his messy face. He didn’t cease to struggle against the man’s hold and the man didn’t say anything else, letting him squirm and wiggle all he wanted until he fell limp and tired in the person’s grasp.
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He had killed her.
He had killed her.
He had killed her.
The words repeated themselves over and over again in his head infinite times until he was sure that he had gone crazy. “Shut up!” he yelled between sobs as he lay curled up on the cold hospital bed. He knew that he had killed her, so why was this voice not leaving him? Why did it have to remind him over and over again?
“Ryuu?”
The voice of his brother pierced through the one in his head—the one that endlessly condemned him of his sin.
Ryuu pushed his face deeper into the pillow and pulled the covers up over his head. However, they were yanked down and off him once more, making him feel so bare and exposed.
“How long are you going to go on like this?” Raiden asked him, voice laced with impatience and frustration. “Get up.”
It was an order, but he didn’t obey it. What right did his brother have to be throwing commands at him when the guy didn’t understand what he was going through at all?
“Ryuu!”
He was grabbed my both shoulders and forcefully lifted up before being spun around in Raiden’s direction. His brother was angry. He knew the guy was. Raiden always lacked patience and had a nasty temper, something that had also been passed down to him, though just not as extreme. His eyes locked themselves to the foot of his bed as they refused to meet with his older brother’s.
“Ryuu, look at me.”
No.
“Ryuu, I said, look at me! I can’t have you drown in your own misery like this—“
“Why do you even care? Don’t you hate me? I killed Mom!”
The accusation made Raiden flinch. “What…?”
“I killed her. She died because of me—because of me! You hate me don’t you? Just say it! Even Dad and when Rin gets back from camp and learns about this, she’ll hate me too! Even Mori will hate me.” Tears that had begun to dry started flowing again.
A moment of silence filled the room before Raiden broke it. “Ryuu, listen to me. None of this was your fault. You didn’t kill her. Do you understand me? It was all an accident. I don’t hate you nor does Dad or Rin or Mori,” he said, his voice much softer than before.
“How do you know?”
“I just know,” he said laying a hand on the boy’s head. “And I’ll make sure they won’t.”
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Raiden was a liar.
The fact that Rin had just ran past him wailing proved that. He stood there, listening to her cries and footsteps fade behind him before turning around to look down the hallway that she disappeared down. There was nothing to say. He knew that. There was nothing to say to make her forgive him or to make her feel better. However, he somehow felt the need to be near her. It was the only thing he could do even if it probably wasn’t going to make a difference.
Dragging his heavy feet forward, he moved towards where he knew Rin would be. It didn’t take long to reach her room. Making his way towards the lone closet in her room, he dropped to his knees and pressed his ear against the wooden door. Sure enough, he could hear muffle sobs coming from behind the locked furniture. He could feel his eyes starting to water and before he knew it, tears were trickling down his cheeks as well.
“I’m sorry, Rin. I’m so sorry…” he whispered with his forehead pressed against the closet. She wouldn’t be able to hear him, but even if she did, she probably wouldn’t forgive him no matter how many times he apologized. He took away their mom; their precious mom. It was all his fault and nothing can atone for that. If he wasn’t there, then she wouldn’t have died.
Turning himself around, he leaned back against the closet and burying his face into his knees, continued to let the tears flow in unison with his sister’s behind the wooden barrier.
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The creak of the closet door opening woke him up. Stirring, Ryuu opened his eyes and saw Rin staring down at him, nose red and eyes puffy from crying out all her anguish. Dried trails of tears lined her baby pink face and he wondered if his face was a mirror of hers.
“Ryuu-nii…” she softly said his name.
“Rin…” Darn it, he could feel the tears threatening to fall again. He tried his best to hold them back. “Rin, I’m sorry, I—“ His words were cut short when Rin fell onto her knees and hugged him. At that very moment, the tears that he desperately tried to hold back poured on his face one again. “Y-You don’t hate me?”
“N-No…I would n-never…hate Ryuu-nii. T-There’s no reason for me to hate Ryuu-nii,” she told, stammering and pausing between hiccups since she started crying again.
“Even after I…” Ryuu’s voice trailed off when he spotted another redhead at the door. “Mori…?” What was he doing here? Did he come with his parents or something? He hadn’t got the chance to talk to his cousin yet after the accident. What would the guy say? Did he even know the whole truth of the event?
The other boy stepped forward and Ryuu braced himself for any words of hatred, but to his surprise, he found himself in a tight group hug instead. No words had been exchanged, not even from the usually talkative Mori, but no words had to be said. The warmth that he could feel from the other two was more than enough to make up for any words that could have been said.
At the moment he felt like everything was fine; that despite all the pain and suffering over the past week, everything will be fine. At least they had each other. That’s why no matter what happens, Ryuu was now certain that at least he had the rest of his family by his side.
Or at least that’s what he thought…
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“This is all your fault!” Ryuu yelled at the top of his lungs at the man who was his so called father. “If you didn’t bring that woman into the family then none of this wouldn’t have happened!” Crimson eyes burned with fiery anger glared at his dad.
“Look, Ryuu—“
“Shut up! I don’t want to hear any of your stupid excuses! I thought you loved Mom. I thought you loved us. If you did then you wouldn’t have married that woman and Rin wouldn’t have run away!” There was so many things that he wanted to get out of his system. Things have been building up ever since he had learned about his dad’s relationship with his secretary. He had tried his best not to let things overflow, but Rin leaving the house was the last straw. “Everything is because of you,” he continued, now with a quieter voice that was something between a hiss and a whisper. “And if you think I’ll accept that person as my mom then you’re wrong.”
All that said, he left the room, not forgetting to close the door extra hard causing a loud bang, one that left the vibrations of anger resonating throughout the house. He leaned back on the door, giving himself a few seconds to catch his breath after all that shouting before slowly making his way down the hall and to his room.
Closing the door with a small click of the lock, he slid down to the floor. Why did things turned out this way? It had been five years since his mom died and ever since then things around the house, even though was never the same again, started getting better little by little until everyone was able to move on. Even if there would always be a speck of guilt pricking his heart every time he looked at her picture, when someone started talking about their mom or when it was Mother’s Day, he was still fine. He was fine.
He was fine until he learned that his dad had decided to remarry.
Everything started going downhill from there. And now, Rin had left the house after she had failed multiple times to convince their dad to get a divorce with their new step-mother. No one agreed to the marriage; not him or Rin or Raiden, but what could they do? They had tried to persuade him many times and tried to show that they didn’t like her, but did he listen to them? No.
This guy, the person who was supposed to have loved his mother, married another woman and made her their mother. The three of them haven’t forgotten about her. Was he so fast as to forget his love for her? The mom who was always there to encourage him whenever he lost a basketball game, the mom who was always there to scold Raiden for any fights he got into, the mom who was there for Rin to hug and cling onto whenever she felt down…
Rin…
That’s right, Rin. His very own twin sister who had just ran away from home, the person who he counted on to always be by his side and vice versa. She left him. She left him here alone to face their step-mom and to be constantly reminded that he was the reason why that woman was here. If it wasn’t for him, then their mom would still be here and they would still be a happy family. Rin knew that, yet she…
With a yell, books went flying, pens and pencils were thrown about, a chair crashed onto the floor and a rain of paper started to fall. All this in the midst of an upset and raging teen that stood amongst the wreckage of his room.
He felt betrayed by his own twin. How could she do this to him? How could she!? Ryuu dropped himself onto his bed, chest slightly heaving from the explosive action. It was then that something caught his eyes.
Bending down, he dragged a picture frame from underneath a book. It was a picture of his family five years ago when they were still together. His fingers traced the cracked cover, moving from one family member to the other. They all looked so happy back then. Unlike now. Will their family ever be able to smile together and laugh at the dinner table again? With their new step-mom and Rin out of the house for who knows how long, he had his doubts.
Standing up again, Ryuu placed the picture frame on top of the desk, where it belonged. Taking one last look at it, he got up and left the room, hoping that someday the picture would be painted into reality, even if their mom wasn’t with them anymore.
